Wednesday, October 2, 2013
Thursday, September 19, 2013
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Recently i had fight with bf. Still dont hv guts to contact him. Haha. Seriouss. I may laugh, but deep inside I am miserable. Need to be strong to not contact him. Not because my ego is high. Its simply bcz I wan to gv him time. Since he was so angry with me. I know its my fault since I provoked him too much las time. But things happened, I wish I can go back in time but I cant. Every second I wish he wud text me or call me jus to acknowledge me that we r still goin strong. But until today there's no news frm him except for he has transferred duit to my cimb akaun. For that im thankful. Sbb duit dlm bank tinggal rm23. Nak makan ape dua minggu dgn rm23. Haha. Sengkek di situ. From there I know he cares a bit bout me. Kui2 but still. No guts to contact him. Its like I had fight with bapak. All I did was cry n let the time fixed it. Tibe2 je bapak baik dgn ku. Siap bagi duit segala. Sayang bapak mmg infinity. Im so stress when bapak does everythg he cud to make me happy. Sedih di situ. So, right now im a bit perplexed. Sbb ape. Tiket to kl for raya next year is cheap. Buttttt dunno whether to take leave or not since most of cheap tickets fall on weekdays. Tp kalo nk amek leave mcm mane nak kahwin. Hmmm. N skrg ni x tahu bf I nak kahwin ngn I ke x. Sedih. Sbb die kata kalau ade jodoh kite kawin. Tpiii mcm kite exam, if xde effort mcm mana nak dpt straight a's in exam. Takdir will follow our effort to make it coherent right. Plus Tuhan kan Maha Bijaksana. Takkan sewenangnya Dia render triumph to lazy ppl right. So in my case. Xkan bile kite nak kahwin, kite biaaa je. Let time fix jugak. Ok x lawak. I think what he meant was dont talk bout kahwin lots. Just chill n go with the flow. When ppl ask then we talk about it. If not jus chill. Xpela. In d mean time. Marilah tunggu bf ku whatsapp or call. Itupon kalo die nak whatsapp. Sedih begini. Tapi what to do. Nak nangis. Hari2 sdh nangis. Hari2 dgr lagu sedih. Konon feeling. Hahaha. I just want him to know that I really love him every second. Wish he wud read this blog n whatsapp me. Which I doubt he will. So jgn la expect more. Expect less pls. Wish he knew he is the only one for me. He's the guy who bring me forward n never let me look back. Always looking forward to meet him. Xpe. Raya haji nt nak kua dua kali. Haha if he read this he prolly doesnt want to contact me. Might as well he spend his money to buy his stuff. I don know. Let jus wait. Mohd rasydan zaki bin zainuri. I love u co much untill I hope no one wud read this coz ill be damn embarrassed if ppl read. Haha. Love u!
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
Penah tak rasa mcm nak kahwin tp xnk dgr ckp suami. U still want to cling urself towards ur parents.nk harap parents bg bezday present smpi bila bila.nk mintak duit parents when u hv none.i pernah.kan I kata I nk kawin kn.tp nex year.tp akak I ni loves to push utk sy kawin awal.so I mcm pk.ape yg bes sgt kawin selain u know what.other than that biase je.hmm.pelik kn.i do can tolerate with my bf.tp I xsuke tolerate slalu.n I hv thing like ble gado ngn bf.asik igt parents.pstu nangis.hahaha.tp x kol pon parents.sbb drg smgt I tau.so I tkt klo I kol I nangis.coz there were several times I cried when I express my prob to them.they r my strentgh foreva n eva.i really love myself parents. The way they sacrifice everything for me is just unbearable.i hope when I get married.i hope they know that I always want to be their daughter.n I don wan to lose them.ever kalau blh.i love them forever really.i really dont wan them to let go of me.i jus wan them to feel that zaki is just an addition to my family.not someone who will confiscate me.n I will let them know that im their daughter forever.
Friday, August 23, 2013
I always overthink bout my future till the point whr my bf didnt want to entertain me anymore. Sad. Haha. But whtevs. Its scares the hell out of me if my future doesnt end up well. I mean what if I dont get pregnant on times whn I shud be pregnant. What if I change my job but the salary isnt coherent w/ the way I live or w/ the stuff tht I need to constanly pay.what if I still stay in miri few years time.what if what if? ..There are just so many possibilities. If u want me to list down one by one, the post will be long.so as for now.i just want to send my resume n see what the rezeki brings me. Hehe. Just bear in ur mind that u are here bcz of ur sister.hehe
P/s:my miri colleague jus asked if I cud help her look for bunga telor. Sadly I cant help her since im not plannig to go to jln tar when I go back home. :(
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Bila u ada
Jerawat + makin kurus + bf x layan = best combo ever. It hurts deep inside. But whatever. I think we both need time to focus on other thing as well. Especially me. I lack activities to do here in miri. I love the fact that I can do nothing here. But I really love texting my bf. Unfortunately he got bored with it. Coz its the same old story everyday. Tgkla. Die xkan text I nt. He cudnt even bother to reply my txt. Coz his life too hectic I guess. Nk pk die ade skandal. Pikir jgk. Tp I still trust he has no scandal. Sbb klo ade pon I nak buat ape. What shud I do. Kan?. So just continue the same life here in miri. Nanti dh pindah cubicle x blh dh nk emo. Ppl can smell ur sadness. So be happy! N call ur mom always!
Sunday, July 21, 2013
1) jeans koyak topshop - baju
2) High waisted jeans joni topshop -baju
3) Mom's jeans tophop - baju
4) Jeggings gelap topshop - baju
5) skirt midi bodycon topshop - baju crop ketat
6) bodycon midi dress topshop
7) Pointy Pump shoes, nk rendah2 punye je
8) Wedges! yg byk2 tali!
How bout dat biatch! haha
Sunday, July 7, 2013
1) nak isi log book iem
2)buat resume baru
3)anta resume baru ke company in kl
4)nak pindah kl before kahwin
6)nak practice make up
7) nak practice buat rambut
8) nak practice buat hantaran
9) look for things for hantaran
10) kenali bunga
11) nak kawin
12) nk jadi org yg byk tanya, n jd org yg selambe. how bout dat! haha
13) beli kereta
14) spend more time with frens
tu jelah setakat ni. byk sgt ni
1) beli rumah.
2) ade anak
Thursday, July 4, 2013
1 to update resume n send to companies in kl
2 to pergi terawikh at least 10 kali
3 to hv plans before commence daily work. Haha
4 to read lots. If possible I would like to finish the hunger games book and shopaholic book this month. *Fingers crossed. Boy, with internet everywhere, its hard for me to focus on other things. Damn!
There are so much things I would like to buy now. Arghhh. First it was clarisonic. Tool which function to open the pores so that the beauty product u utilize can be absorbed easily. Did u know that the problem of our skin problem is not because of cheap beauty product or rather the expensive ones. It was because the product is not absorb efficiently to our skin. Hmm. My mom has that tool. Unfortunately it belongs to her instead of me plus she bought the tool. Thus of course the tools is hers. Then the next things I want to buy is pointy shoes. I want the average height of pointy heels shoes. I dont think I could stand wearing 4" high heels. I mean it does elongate my leg but then again its not relevent. Not to forget I want the most comfortable pointy shoes ever. Its because i dont come from wealthy family so I cant bear buy lots of shoes at one time. I must limit my choice since I hv tight budget. But im still very thankful with things I have. Im happy. Okey back to the story, my point is I dont know which one to prioritize and the list goes on. Haha. Aigooo. K la. Tu je. Toodles
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Am having headache recently. I think its cause by my lack of sleeping. Its hard for me to fall asleep at 10pm. I dont know why. I guess I want to cherish every minute of me waking up. Do u get what I mean. No eh. Who cares. I also think my headache cause by pre-menstruation too. Pity me. Hopefully I recover fast so that I could have productive day at office. Go away headache.
Thursday, June 6, 2013
Haha. Am no famous blogger.But im so excited to know that this apps is actually exist.Call me noob or whatever, im still excited.haha.The fact that I can just post my recent activities here in this blog.Sooo excited.Technology indeed has its own advantages.huhu.Okey I leave u with photo of me n my bf during 2010 and 2012.Oh how I miss him but then again truthfully I love being in miri coz I get to spend time only with myself. Sometimes I wish I hv my close frens here but its ok.Im ok with or without them so far. Huhu. But then again after 1 year being here Im not sure if I suddenly cant stand anymore n decide to go bck kl instead.Hahahaha.We'll see.Ok thats all.toodles.
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
hmm.actually i forgot what i wana tell in this this post.I forgot.OMG,my brain barely works,im starting to forget things! NO! hehe. DRAMA much!. hehe. saje je.
Whatever la! thats it. toodles
Saturday, March 30, 2013
itu je. toodles!
Thursday, March 21, 2013
Mula-mula masa bulan January, Zaki did say he wanted to risik me.At first, it will be on October.Suddenly last 3 weeks, he said he has told her mom,n her mom agreed to risik me on May,I was so suprised i dont even know what to say.Zaki is a very cool guy.He is really good at savings.Thus,he has the money for risik already.That is why he wanted to risik me as soon as possible.I admit, i always force him to start something,but now i regret forcing him.haha.I should have waited like one year of working before i ask him to risik me.Arghhh!
Masa nak bgthu parents i was the hardest part.The weird thing was,at first my sister she supported me to get married early.But now it seems like she hates it so much the fact that my journey to get married can be deemed as easy peasy. Every time i brought out story about my wedding,she will condemn me automatically.I hate it.I think my dugaan to kahwin is not my parents,its my sister.She's my dugaan. Astaga Okey go back to telling my parents part,i told my father first about risik ni.My mom knew nothing about it.Then after few days,my sister went to KL n hinted to my mom about risik ni.She was so dissappointed just because i didnt tell her first about risik ni.Terpaksalah i kol my mom n told her about it,n of course she made sarcastic jokes on me.Duhh.But After awhile, my parents really okey with it and the one who's not okey with it now is my sister.Funney!
Ape-ape jelah akak aku ni.So now the date of the wedding.My plan is to have risik on May 2013,Tunang on May 2014 and kahwin May 2015.I told my dad about it but my dad rejected my plan.Arghh.He wanted my wedding to be held soon.GILA!Aku x bersedia untuk menjadi isteri.He wanted to have risik on May 2013,Tunang August 2013, and kahwin nex year.WTF!haha.Sumpah x bersedia langsung.Rasa mcm nak lari.HAHAHA.After awhile,i think its better for me to kahwin soon,but im still not ready.
So tgk macam mana.Maybe risik will be on May 2013,Tunang Dec 2013 and kahwin on Dec 2014.How about dat! zzz.Peningla fikir pasal kahwin,nak fikir mende lain.Toodles.
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
hehe.Its been a long time since i blog.Nothing much to tell.My life is the same.Now that i work, i turn into boring person. Plus I have no work to do. FYI, i work in MMC Oil n Gas Miri. Eventhough, MMC can consider as big company, no projects are coming. Last project i did was Petronas Carigali. It was fun doing that project as I learn lots of things pertaining to electrical or specifically Power System Engineering.Its funny though, i major in Communication n yet im stucked in Pwer System.Whatever it is, when life gives u lemon u make lemonade.haha!Whatever jelah.
Btw, there are 4 people working in the same department as i am,sadly one of them wants to leave.So sad,thus only 3 persons left including me under electrical depatment.Enrico, the eletrical designer engineer will leave this Friday.I thought he leaves by end of this month.Whatever jelah.I wish good luck in his future.hehe
Aforementioned,I have no work now as no projects are coming in. Thus,im afraid about my future.Im afraid if i could not gain as much knowledge as i can before i relocate myself to KL.I plan to live here only 3++ years.At the most will be 5 years.Thus,i need to seize all knowledge here in MMC.Hopefully, MMC Miri can accomplish abundance of project this year.I really hope.Pray for my company n me too.Amin
I have intemeresting story, fyi i have special event this May.U wanna know what.Wait till i write about it on May.Hahaha.I give u a hint,this event indicates my small step towards marriage.Heee.Thats about it.Toodles!Hehe
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Sunday, January 13, 2013
Friday, January 11, 2013
haha. i miss blogging tho. btw im now in miri! City where u dont need to stress bout traffic jam and lost plenty of money.haha.Really, i can really save money by living here since there is not so much things i can do.hehe.so,its been 2 weeks im here in miri.So far,its been good.Of course, i miss my family,my friends and also my partner a k a zaki but i was occupied with works.Thus i have no time to immerse myself in sad lonely phase.I really love working here,it is just that i hate when miri has no entertainment place where i can visit often.i heard the cinema here is sad.They dont really focus in giving good services to customer.Thus when u watch movie in miri, sometimes there was a moment when the film get burned and the movie was stop halfway.haha.How funny and frustrating is that :( . But then again is okey since i have plenty of entertainments at my sister's house.hehe.Oh i forgot to mention bout here in miri i live with my sister.hehe.So thats y i feel okey to live here.hehe.
so itu jelah. toodles